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Ok I have a slight issue. I have a problem to be more exact. This is a problem that seems to be more and more prevelent. Why is it that the only images of heavy black women on television or heavy women period always portrays them chasing after a man? I can not accurately explain how bad this pisses me off. Don’t believe me?

1. Mo’nique in almost anything she plays in

2. Norbit

3. Jennifer Hudson in Dreamgirls (excellent portrayal but still…And I am telling you, let his ass go)

4. The social worker on Ugly Betty

In an episode of SVU the High School glam squad basically picked on this fat girl til she killed someone. Seriously? Seriously? SERIOUSLY? Look I have always been overweight and basically you have two choices, get over yourself or lose the frikking weight. I remember being picked on in High School and sometimes it was because of my weight but you bust back on the person who’s tripping and keep it moving.

Why are we raising such a generation of punks. It is the parents responsibility to instill in their children a sense of self-worth. What do you people think High School is for? High School is primarily where you learn social skills. This is where you should learn that if a guy doesn’t like you, fine, i promise you will find two more who do. At least I did. I remember I really liked Sean for whatever reason. And when he rejected me, I was like damn. Oh well. And that was it. It was all in the course of maybe a day or two and I was done. Really, I don’t think he turned me down because I heavy, it more so because I was a thug and he was into safe girls or more demure. At least thats impression I got. My heart wasn’t broken, I wasn’t crushed, the world frikking moved on. Everyone is not going to like you. And, thats ok.

I am tired of the negative images that we are feeding children. Do you know….I have an ex boyfriend who started smoking because he wanted to fit in with the older guy that lived around my way. From that day to this one I have repeatedly reminded him what a knuckle head he is for doing that. Granted he stopped smoking a few years ago because he realized I was right. Well d’uh!

When I was in high school for some strange idiotic reason I thought looking like a lush was cool. Until one day a played a small joke on a whole lot of people and realized we are all insecure about something. Whether its weight or brains or fitting-in in general EVERYONE has insecurities. The trick is to deal with them effectively.

I know that’s easier said than done. I know how many kids I went to school with bragging about how much sex they were having when they didn’t really lose their virginity until college.

Being who you are takes strength. Being comfortable with who you are takes wisdom and courge. Rejection happens. That doesn’t make you less of a person. Don’t tie your worth up in what someone else thinks of you that is surely a road to distruction. (Why do I feel like I have been misspelling everything lately)

Anyway I’m done with my rant I guess.

Just rememebr that the world you see on tv is just that, a world created to entertain you. It is not meant for you to idolize or deify. And, if someone you like doesn’t like you keep in mind it’s their bad, not yours.


Now that you and I seem to be better friends, I wish we could sit down and fill in some of the blanks.