Sitting at the dinner table with my mom and my sister talking about relationships, love, marriage and children. They question my resolve to not wanting children or marriage in my lifetime. They tell me how I can’t say that because I have never loved anyone yet, so when I meet that person that I will love then i will chnge my feelings.
I met that person April, 2001. And I have loved them every single day since. And we have never been together. So the next question why are you in a relationship then? I really can’t answer that. I have explained to Rabbit that I am not interested in having children or getting married. Sometimes people love you enough to believe they can change you. I don’t change. I progress and evolve but the resolve stays solid. I’m stubborn like that.
I don’t feel like I am depriving myself either. I embrace the love that is shown to me. But the only thing I will invest myself completely in is poetry. I’m not sad about it nor should anyone else be. I have a great family and awesome friends. I even have a great love. I am the happiest I have ever been in my life and I am loving every day. Not having the conventional picture society deems as happiness does not negate the fact that I am happy.