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Cinnamon Delight

It's interesting how people wrestle with the idea of not having control over their own fate. I think predestined fate is a tricky concept. In some cases, very relative, as well. Personally, I don't think of fate or destiny as this thing that robs me of my power to...

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Lotus Flower Rehab

If someone asks me if you're a shitty person and, in fact, you have been shitty to me, you gotta take that L homie. When I confirm your shittyness, I will offer any relevant caveats (but they are better now, or they were going through XYZ) but if ain't no (I said what...

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Travel Time to Pikepsy

I'm not sure what I feel right now. The wee hours in the morning and I should be sleep but my heart... My heart is something. I don't know what tho. My thoughts are all over the place. I think I need to cry. I can't even remember the last time I cried. Or screamed. Or...

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Falsetto Faqs

I keep pressing backspace. That should mean something but really all it means is that I don't know. What to say, who to be, how to feel. I'm hoping for the best but preparing for nothing at all. I watched a dark sky fill with stars just before it disappeared....

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Hindsight Henny

I was lying there thinking about how the same circumstances 8 years ago would have overwhelmed me. The idea of being a leader. The idea of success. Now? Today? I don't have the luxury of being overwhelmed. I want the life I feel inside. It haunts me. I can't and won't...

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Interview for Ever

Have a seat Make yourself at home Would it be OK if I ask you a thousand questions about :Who you are :Who you have been :Who you hope to become Tell me about a time that you met a stranger and let them inside Tell me about a time you froze over with fear and somehow...

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marimopet : the quicker u come to terms with the fact that people change/grow and are complex and contradictory the less ur likely to set them to binaries ++save urself the false sense of deceit when they dont comply to ur preconceived notions of them. cool...

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Say Huh 

I was not playing when I said I would not be stepping out on another ledge for another individual. I meant that. Unless we are both standing on that ledge together for one another it's not happening. I'm not chasing you. I don't care how much we click or I like you....

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Alabaster Fall

Sometimes you just gotta wonder what's the point. I tried. I jumped out there. I kept my triggers in check. I did what I knew to do. I won't say I failed... Even though that's how it feels.  I don't know what I could have done differently without sacrificing...

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Sweet RetroGrade

Well shit. This is where I gather myself. I just saw something that says expect nothing... I don't understand this. I don't get this cowardly lion ass approach to going after nothing and swallowing your wants to serve your fear. Expect gahtdamn everything and...

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The Random

Sweet RetroGrade

Well shit. This is where I gather myself. I just saw something that says expect nothing... I don't understand this. I don't get this cowardly lion ass approach to going after nothing and swallowing your wants to serve your fear. Expect gahtdamn everything and...

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I know I’m fluffy and cute but…

I know I'm fluffy and cute but food is not the only way to show you like me. I mean I don't want to go to a weight watcher's meeting on our date but gahtdamn thinking I want a buffet or always bringing me food, ain't the way. Sheesh.

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“Unhappiness is in me”

“If there is unhappiness in you, first you need to acknowledge that it is there. But don’t say “I’m unhappy.” Unhappiness has nothing to do with who you are. Say: “There is unhappiness in me.” Then investigate it. A situation you find yourself in may have something to...

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Scandal

This gahtdamn show makes me want to run around the house in socks and torn drawers!!!!

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The Ramblings

Interview for Ever

Have a seat Make yourself at home Would it be OK if I ask you a thousand questions about :Who you are :Who you have been :Who you hope to become Tell me about a time that you met a stranger and let them inside Tell me about a time you froze over with fear and somehow...

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Moonrise over Assala (A fictional place)

I love you. I will always love you. But, what we had wasn't authentic. It's hard to say but I'm not sure either of us were really ever being honest at the same time. But understand that I know you love me. I know that you cared and that as hard as it was for you to...

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Reflections

Deep waves crashing A sun too weighed down To stay high Echos of light Over a body we take for granted I have a report due Tomorrow by noon You have several clients Awaiting designs We have an impatient moon Hanging over us Threatening to reveal The lines in our faces...

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Battle Worn

Somewhere in the crux of my silence Was the hope we could Tell jokes about high school insecurities Make sarcastic remarks That only served to Bring us closer Because we've built tough skin Around playful wounds Watching people we love Unlove themselves So we gave all...

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Sound Off

Laid out like a paraplegic Meanwhile Everybody can tell me what's supposed to happen. How I should feel Just keep quiet. Just keep moving the sound bites around and look down at the sidewalk. Keep your head. Hold your emotions. In. Everybody can tell me what's...

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Seek and Destroy

I just want to talk. I don't need to touch you, not in that way. I'm a deviant. My goal is to creep silently inside places you've long forgotten existed. I won't be subtle about it. You'll know that's where I'm headed and you'll quietly, gently, beg me to keep going....

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Who I Am

I am no one
from no where
wishing to achieve
Anything
That means something
to Someone
Even if it means
Nothing
to me.

Scared (2004)

Scared, iamdew (2004)

Random (2005)

Melodramatic (2007)

Solitude (2011)

Phantom (2013)

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